This is a photoshoot/interview I did last year. Originally meant for Behind the Blinds, a huge men's editorial.
It was moved to their smaller publication Shadowplay for the pride issue, without notifying me. When I asked why it moved I was told that it just fit better in Shadow Play, and that if I didn't agree they could just pull the whole editorial entirely. Everyone on set worked really hard for this shoot, so I couldn't let it not be published anywhere.
But it is not lost on me the reality of the publications decision as well as the power imbalance going on.
That frustrated the hell out of me, I felt my experience in masculinity wasn't enough or valued for all types of men to read and relate too. I felt like they wanted to hide me, they didn't expect the styling and energy to be so feminine. I love my trans community, I also want to help encourage cis men to grow and heal, I can't very well do that if I'm restricted to smaller branching spaces. I guess atleast it got published tho sometimes i dream about what it could've been had they gone with the original plan and stayed courageous.
I think fashion now a days is playing it too safe tbh. ♡
Photography by Arden Arden.
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